Have I lost it?

Have I lost it?
Have I lost what I spent so much sweats and pain to achieve last time?
Even if I were to get it back after much effort, it would take far too long, far too late
I don't think I am able to make it in time this time round
Not enough time to make up for the loss

On the other side, at least I have unofficially graduated liaos. After 3 insane years in TP