Old makes way for the new

I guess I do not have the habit of posting blog already.
So, let's say, time to say goodbye to this blog?
I wont shut it down but as of now I have nothing much in mind to post about.

My life

My life is to be set apart for God
To be pure and not let the things of the world get to me.
And it is a tough struggle but I will still keep fighting.

A title for the sake of having a title

I originally wanted to start with me dreading going to Taiwan, with me feeling not ready to face what is ahead, and all the preparation driving me crazy. But somehow, I just felt the feeling to read through all my post ever since I enlisted in Tekong till now.

The feeling about going Taiwan isn't new. I've struggled with it countless times, so many times I can't remember already. And once again, I know I'm faced with my weakness, that it's indeed going to be a tough battle for me. But looking back at all those post, I can feel the feeling of relief and happiness when God has sustained me through all those tough times.

And now, I choose to stand up and believe that God will be faithful enough to pull me through the impossible. To pull me through what I think I will not able to pull through. And I choose to believe that I will indeed live by faith and not by sight, and not let my thoughts keep repeating all those uncertainties but just take the step of faith and let God do the rest.

It may be quite ironic that I type this and then next morning feel the dread once again. But then, I want to just post this as a reminder to myself and to those who read the blog that in our walk, we gotta stand fast in Him.



I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end, even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered, broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

p.s. I posted this song before but this is really one of my favourites which is a constant reminder that our faith in God has to be rooted.

The week goes on

Booked in on Sunday night with super lack of sleep from Bataam retreat and feeling sick from last 3 days

And then on Monday I got back my X-ray report on leg which showed my leg to be perfectly fine, which means I have to do my routes march remedial training on a Saturday, which made me super upset already. 

So, having weekend burnt, losing things here and there, need to qiong sua in Taiwan, it's really a depressing week to start out with but somehow I survived till Friday. 

Went home on Tuesday to grab clean clothes and wash the dirty clothes, wanted to do some quiet time but I played a mission on my game and mission dragged on and I left home just in time feeling more unhappy, then life goes on luh huh.

Endured alittle more, thank God I got 2nd year IPPT silver which means more money!!! Yay!!! Went home on Thursday night, this time, grab new clothes, shower and spent close to an hour on piano and guitar just singing praises. Totally love this feeling max. Spiritually and mentally recharge to face the route march on Saturday though physically tired due to fatigue and lack of sleep accumulated from last week. 

That's all for now. Shall see how things go on Saturday and next week I'm gonna spend alittle more time in camp, then go defer my university intake to next year February and apply for probational driving license. 

Flying off to Taiwan for the climax next week and then after which all shall end. Looking forward to a time of more rest after that. Time of bitter and tough times 1st, then after that is more a more sweet and relaxing time. 

New start for my computer

Ok...so I kinda brain washed my computer.
Main frustration is that it's getting laggy from all my abuse. For a laptop that endured 4 years of abuse, I'm quite proud of it.

I wanted to remove all the junk memories as well as the games which are in it. Too many games really making it process everything slowly.

So these are the list of games which are formally in it and what's not cancelled are the ones I've either re-installed or put it back into the computer after I did the restore settings

Company of heroes
Call of duty Modern warfare 2
Call of duty Modern warfare
Call of duty black ops
Age of empires 2
Age of empires 2 conquerors
Crysis 
Crysis warhead
Crysis 2
Halo 2
Plant Vs Zombies (can you believe it?)
Medal of honor airborne
Lost planet
Lost planet 2
Ace combat assault horizon
H.A.W.X
H.A.W.X 2
Blazing angels
Command and conquer Generals zero hour
Command and conquer generals

No point spending lots of times on games.
My NS life is coming to an end soon and its gonna be time for uni!!!!
And to everyday is a continual journey to seek God.

All these draggings

Injury dragged on while waiting for X-ray report
Disruption process forever a dragging process
1 week break for me before all chaos sets off once again.
But that one week break is good enough for me I guess.
Time to sleep after a long and tiring day out.

Injured, pain but glad it's over

I've pulled through the worse week of march already, even though I'm injured myself at multiple areas, especially my leg.

Bruises, cuts, soreness and aches and one large open wound sustained from a fall.
But then, even then, after 3 days of killer field camp, followed by Vocational Obstacle Course on Thursday and my medical skill proficiency test on Friday.

Totally feel like a full time qiongsua infantry man and a part time paramedic.
But then, there is little to celebrate.
Only little rest, of which I've overspent on food the moment I got my hands on them.
The month of march is a month of overspending and little resting.

Now that march is over, next month is coming already!!! A little breather (I hope before the worse comes).

After that (I secretly hope it's 5 months of holidays), is just the final phase of my NS life, followed by ORD!!!!

Thank God for His ever sustaining love, strength and mercy.

Facing this

Facing this once again, just perhaps on a greater scale, tougher, more demanding, more draining.
But then, be it flow through the motion, eat sweets non stop to feel the sugar rush or just keep going on.

May God be my strength in the next few days.
Company mission exercise!!!

Hoorah!!!

~Gonna pamper myself with more food and drinks waiting for me after finishing it, even though this month the budget kinda over burst already!!!~

As we continue to grow

Critics who treat adult as a term of approval, instead of as a merely descriptive term, cannot be adult themselves. To be concerned about being grown up, to admire the grown up because it is grown up, to blush at the suspicion of being childish; these things are the marks of childhood and adolescence. And in childhood and adolescence they are, in moderation, healthy symptoms. Young things ought to want to grow. But to carry on into middle life or even into early manhood this concern about being adult is a mark of really arrested development. When I was ten, I read fairy tales in secret and would have been ashamed if I had been found doing so. Now that I am fifty I read them openly. When I became a man I put away childish things, including the fear of childishness and the desire to be very grown up.

C.S Lewis

I don't care

I don't care and I don't expect myself to care.