All to Him

All to Him, I commit



LYRICS
For every mountain that is high He is higher
For every burden that is great He is greater
For every valley that is deep He is deeper still
More than we can know

Our promise is Jesus
Our answer is Jesus
All to Him
All to Him we owe everything
Our savior is Jesus 
Our future is Jesus
All to Him
All to Him we owe everything

For every fear that closes in He is closer
For every doubt that comes on strong He is stronger
For every battle that we face He has conquered all
More than we can know

We know the great God
We serve the great God
We owe the great God
Everything all to Him 

Bless the Lord

You give and take away for my good
For who am I to say what I need
For You alone see the hidden parts of me
That need to be stripped away

And as You begin to refine
I'm learning to let go and rely
On One who walks with me
As hard as it may be

You're teaching me all the while to say
Bless the Lord, O my soul
All that's in me bless Your name
Forget not Your power un-told
Not Your glory or Your fame
For You came to heal the broken
To redeem and make me whole
Bless the Lord, O my soul

Please be my strength

I've tried to stand my ground
I've tried to understand
but I can't seem to find my way

like water on the sand
or grasping at the wind
I keep on falling short 

please be my strength
please be my strength
I don't have anymore
I don't have anymore

I'm looking for a place
that I can plant my faith
one thing I know for sure

I cannot create it
I cannot sustain it
It's Your love that's keeping (captured) me

Please be my strength...

at my final breath
I hope that I can say
I've fought the good fight of faith

I pray your glory shines
through this doubting heart of mine
so my world would know that You

You are my strength
You and You alone
You and You alone
Keep bringing me back home

Complete in you...lacking nothing..

Will I be...

Will I be strong enough to face what is to come once again?
I do not know the answer
Neither am I going to think about what happened

It is not the result of what happened that caused so much pain and sadness, but the things that I felt before, during and after the event.
No longer am I going to buy the words of those who tells me: "you can do it".
Though I appreciate those encouragement, they no longer mean anything to me as of now.

And neither is telling myself that I will be able to pull it by God's strength going to work
It is not that I do not believe that I will be able to pull through it with God's strength
I am not doubting God, neither is it a case where I have lost hope in God
I will always declare that God is the strength of my heart
But it's just that it's no longer what I think and want will happen, but it's me saying: "Not my will, but your will be done"

I thought that I have already gotten over it, already gotten over the sadness and ready to continue moving on,  yet yesterday, during the Sunday morning worship, the exact same words that I was impressed upon before the event was spoken and it just felt that the old wounds were torn opened again and the hurt just felt so real again.

It is a test of my faith in God.
One of the toughest I had ever went through
I did think that if I managed to pull through it previously, I wouldn't have felt so broken the day that happened and then yesterday.
Yet I know that God's hand is over everything.
I can tell that He is telling me to trust in Him into a deeper level.

No longer it is just "Trusting on the Lord and not leaning to my own understanding" (Proverbs 3:5)
I am not implying that that verse is not important.
It is just that in this test, I believe that it is a test more than that. Way more than that.

When we say that we want a deeper walk with God, do not expect the deepening of the relationship to come.
Be expected that God to literally break you, until all you feel is nothing but despair.
But it's ok.
It is only in despair that our prayers reach a deeper level
It is only in despair that we know that there is no such things as "bright side of life"
It is only in despair that we know how to pray with a heart that is really broken and contrite

This is a testing for me...to really say from my heart
"Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him"

Going back to camp in another few hours.
Though I am not feeling so terrible as last week cause field camp has been conquered, and it is by God's grace that I conquered it, but there are still things to be done.
More tests to overcome.

Psalm 94:18-19
When I said, My foot slippeth; thy mercy, O Lord, held me up.
In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comfort delight my soul

***What happened is just something between me and God and it took place in camp. No 3rd party was involved in this and it is not an issue of relationship issues with other people***

Divine exchange

I live to worship you
I breathe to worship to you
All of my days, your face I'll seek
For as I worship you
You lead me to that place
To that place of divine exchange



No matter what comes my way, I would want to declare that Jesus is the King and Lord over my life.

BLESSED BE YOUR NAME!!!

Everlasting God

From the inside out

My heart and my soul,
I give you control
Consume me from the inside out

Christ alone, cornerstone

Fear the Lord

Provrbs 8:13
The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate.

O Lord, teach everyone of us to fear You, to depart from all evil and to hate all the ways of the flesh.

That we may live a life that is pleasing towards you.




Jesus, friend of sinners, we have strayed so far away
We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to swing
Jesus, friend of sinners, the truth's become so hard to see
The world is on their way to You but they're tripping over me
Always looking around but never looking up I'm so double minded
A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

Yeah...

Jesus, friend of sinners, the one who's writing in the sand
Make the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands
Help us to remember we are all the least of thieves
Let the memory of Your mercy bring Your people to their knees
No one knows what we're for only against when we judge the wounded
What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and loved like You did

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast
For the leper and the lame; they're the reason that You came
Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast
But you died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

'Cause You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks Yours

And I was the lost cause and I was the outcast
Yeah...
You died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

Wait for the Lord, Bless the Lord and sing of His mercies

I find myself struggling to stand firm.

I find myself pressed under the weight of all the trials and testings

But despite all, God has told me. Wait upon the Lord.

Wait for the Lord, all ye who are righteous

Despise not the wicked, for they have their reward

But you shall ride, on the heights of all the earth

And taste of things not seen nor heard

You share declare, the greatness of the Lord

Wait oh wait for your reward

Indeed, we all gotta wait for the Lord, whose day is near

It is only in the waiting upon the Lord, that we are able to learn how to praise God despite all circumstances no matter how painful they are, and to be able to sing blessings to the Lord

Bless the Lord, my soul, and bless God's holy name.
Bless the Lord, my soul, who leads me into life. (Ps 104,1)


The Lord controls everything in our lives.
Trust in Him, no matter what.
Take heart, and take firm foundation in Christ
And every day, we will be able to sing of His mercies

Here I am a sinner broken and in need of You

Take my life and wash my fears away

For You are the 'Great I am', rest assured, I feel Your hand

Holding me until the darkness clears

A Father to the fatherless, redeemer of my soul

My Life is Yours forever, my heart will always know

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

Here I stand a child of Yours broken and in need of You

Break these chains and wash my guilt away

Healer of my brokenness, my weary soul will find its rest

You are my strength, the lifter of my head

You're greater than my yesterdays, You hold me close today

You're the Lord of my tomorrows, my heart will always say

You're greater than my yesterdays, You hold me close today

You're the Lord of my tomorrows, my heart will always say

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole, me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

You called me as Your own

You called me as Your own

Thank You for Your mercy

Thank You for Your mercy

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

You called me as Your own, Your own

thanks to a friend who showed me this song :)

Exalted

Yaweh

All consuming, everlasting,
God of almighty, Lord of glory

Still

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the floods
I will be still and know you're God

Is your heart still before God?

Trust in Him always, always, always.

Banish all fears and doubt.
And when rest is found in Him, with quietness and trust, His power will be known

It is well with my soul

That I may learn that no matter what I go through, God is in control, and that I may learn to say that: "It is well with my soul"



This hymn was written after several traumatic events in Spafford's life. The first was the death of his only son in 1871, shortly followed by the great Chicago Fire which ruined him financially (he had been a successful lawyer).

Then in 1873, he had planned to travel to Europe with his family on the S.S. Ville Du Havre, but sent the family ahead while he was delayed on business. While cross­ing the Atlantic, the ship sank rapidly after a collision with another ship, and all four of Spafford's daughters died.

His wife Anna survived and sent him the now famous telegram, "Saved alone." Shortly afterwards, as Spafford traveled to meet his grieving wife, he was inspired to write these words as his ship passed near where his daughters had died.

The Spaffords later had three more children, one of whom (a son) died in infancy. In 1881 the Spaffords, including baby Bertha and newborn Grace, set sail for Palestine.

In His time

In His time, in his time
He Makes all things beautiful
In His time
Lord, Please show me every day
As You're teaching me Your way
That You do just what you say
In Your time.

In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful
In Your time
Lord, My life to you I bring
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing
In Your time

I'm held by your Love

I know that I'm held by His love
I have nothing to fear

For me to live is christ

From the Inside out

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise, become my embrace
To love You from the inside out